Learning To Be Awesome Back

By Cindy Tan • August 11, 2016

Hi Pengyows!

How’s it going? I have since been speculating to blog or not to blog. But coming from an “akashic” meeting last night made me ponder on things. Akashic reading is like asking guidance from the spiritual beings to lead you in making your decisions. Though it is with your own vibration that you decide, it is really important to invest on yourself. I observed that majority of the people who are looking for answers to life’s meaning is because one is not attuned with oneself. I observed that one is not confident of his or her own capability with regards to problems. I have been constantly listening to Abraham Hicks because her videos do make sense with regards to applying real life situations.

I have a friend who wanted to ask my opinion about online dating. What are the pros and cons. This is my answer. Online dating is for people who are very busy with their work and business. It is a platform of getting to know someone without investing too much frills. The advantage of online dating is that you get to have choices with regards to finding a mate. The downside here is that there is no assurance that what you expect from the person is whom you will meet in reality. I suggest if you try online dating, keep the conversation light, research on his background, feel the vibe of the conversation and talk on the phone if possible before meeting so as to see if you both have a connection.

I learned a lot of lessons last night and met new friends. It was something that was not “me”. Technically, I am a planner, I don’t usually go to far places beyond Manila especially at night. I am the type of person who always want to be on the safe side. In our meeting, I was able to see the mirror of what I went through with the people that I met. When I was in the “confused and depressed state” ,I was seeking for answers. I kept on crying and asking why.  Abraham Hicks taught me to follow my own vibration so that I will be in alignment. Last night was part of my alignment. It made me appreciate and be thankful for my life. When it was my turn for the akashic reading, I was told to “accept and learn from my past mistake. Or else I would be doing it again if I will not accept.” But what made me ponder is how can I get on accepting when the brain has done the work but the heart has stayed? I know deep in my heart I have accepted but of course the desire is still there. The funny thing is that a new friend asked me if I thought that what is bound to happen is what I think. Well, I smiled and laughed because he made a point. Deep in my own vibration is the desire to find that same or more of that manifestation. I know I can get what I want. I hope I could learn to let my “soul” do the choosing and not the “ego”. I understood what he meant about my “ego” choosing what is right. Technically, we make our own choices. There are fights we can defend and love that we choose to let go.

Another point of reflection here also was meeting two women who just had their heart broken. It was devastating for them that’s why, they asked advice from me. Well, I believe that “moving on” must not be rushed. One has to go thru all the pain and depression to look forward to a new future. If there is one thing I learned from Abraham Hicks, it is about choosing your thoughts and trying to forget. Once a person falls in love, memories will continuously stay within the system. It will not go away. But it is the choice of the person if the person will let that memory eat up everything that she has in her life. I have accepted that love in me is unconditional.  I am love. I am happy. I am blessed. I am thankful. I have encountered a lot of memory lapses, word synchronicity but now I am just laughing it all off so as to let go. Of course I will never forget someone that I loved. He is the best thing that ever happened in my life. But choice right now is choosing my love for myself and family. Being a Filchi, I think this is the greatest pressure of choice. Which is more important, family or “Romeo and Juliet love affair”? Now, I have begun to be more careful with my feelings because I have appreciated my existence as a human being more than ever. I was telling my friend last night that I want to go back to my old “me” when I was satisfied being alone. But my new friend told me that I can never go back, because a new “me” is a different me. I have to learn to change my vibration within the process. Thank you, universe for always providing for me. Thank you, Lord for always being here with me.

Thank you, Pengyows